WARNING: read the following at your own fuckin risk...

so i guess it all fuckin started on wednesday. well it wasn't that bad. till thursday... yea.. so my mum and i were talking, starting with how shocked i was in being 9th in class. which is pretty shocking, no, really.

so you people think that im living in heaven cause of lucius, but thats beside the point.

well. thursday and friday's been more or less like this:

we were talkin and suddenly at night she was screaming at me not to use the phone, comp, tv after 10. fuck. so okays, i went into my room and asked my boyfriend to call me. and she came in and obviously i didn't want her to know i AM using the bloody handphone. so she screamed at me for the next ten minutes, dragging my studies, telling me i am gonna get expelled and shit again and saying that im a bastard and all. and she blamed her h.b.p. on me. how cool. thanks mum, i needed the retain thing on top of EVERYTHING else.

so yeah, my boyfriend obviously heard it, and i was crying me eyes out and i couldn't breathe and shit. so anyways, went out with MUM to get me new shoes. i didn't expect her to wanna make my specs today so i said and she fuckin scolded me again, saying i won't ever get it. so whatever. anyways, a bit earlier on, i said i forgot the bring my nike card, where i had a stamp on and shit. so yea, she kinda fucked me up in publc again, saying that "you knew we were coming and you didn't bring the card, see how you make me sick" "so irresponsible" and SHIT>. in the bloody FUCKIN SHOP>. walao. we in public lar, at home i stil can try and shut up. so i walked away, grinding the reamains of my teeth. and then she started again. den i accompanied her to the carpark and said thanks. and she just grabbed the bag and fucked off. what a lovely start to the day huh. and she was ranting at me about everything, up the escalators. in the lift, the walk. EVERYWHERE. i kinda got sick lar. so yeah... i REN...

so yeah... met darling. talk about the outing later.

i saw her miss calls and bilions of msgs to me after chris and ice left, and i gave her a call after the movie. so she said "why didn't you blah blahs..... and i said im sorry, next time i will sms you... anyways, you feeling better?" guess how she replied me. " you caused me to be sick (sth lidat)" and i said " ok, i asked you nicely, if you don't appreciate it, its fine. i won't bother about you anymore." and she said " i dun need you to be concerned about me. bye." ILOVEYOUMUM. fuckhell.

so i just got my ass home. oops, i meant HELL. yepp.

she didn't hear me say hi to everyone, so i said it again, and she asked me what i meant by everyone, cuz its rude. fine, so i said it again and reminded her REALLY NICELY that i was concerned about her earlier on, and the way she replied me was FUCK> i didn't say that. but i said i wan SIAN. and eh got up, rushed to me. slammed me against the wall, head hitting the display cupboard, shoulder got hit and shit, and threatened to slap me. what a lovely home im in.

and ritchie( darling's shittzu) has kidney probs, im sorry for not understanding your frustration earlier on dear.

so basically, im living hell. and it rocks my socks.

so besides that, today was fun, went out and met darlin, saw him play drums, met ice, introduced them, he went for work, took neoprints with her, bought tickets for movie, went to yamaha cuz ice saw 2 cuties. met christine, went to take neos, had a late lunch, went for the movie, they ji-siao-ed him, walked around abit, they left, i saw amanda and bri and auntie, said hi, got a lovely red rose from amanda that made me cheered up. walked around alone, bought a nice shirt, i hope. and er, said bye to him, and left. for training.

slacked less today, called darling after that, was complaining about the manager thingy, family stuff, ritchie, all affefcted his mood. morever i was talking to ein and kinda ignoring the call. maid got lost, bloody pissed, and i'm home, blogging. sad life i have huh. so today was fun, apart from the above lar.

anyways, thanks to lucius, for being so nice. chris, fred and ice, for being so concerned. andy for the sms which made my day, amanda for the rose which made it better. and ein for having me smile for awhile.