living hell. practically...
oh wells, whaddya know. im fucked up. really got too far this time. i pon-ed school again,on e of my last times, promise. anyways, went to marine parade polyclinic with rain, ty, zh, jack. then went to suntec whilst rain stayed at pp to wait for jan^2. hahas they taking cab there ma, so we went there, wanting to play the arcade, but guess what, it won't open till 10. so we waited and they opened at 10+ can sue them ma? hahas... before that they went to the super huge carpet at family link and zh and jack wanted to pretend to be babies. so they had a mini competition- crawling. so see who can crawl the furthest/fastest from this line to the other end. hahas. and sadly, both of them were wearing broadshorts. and theyir knees got scraped, hahas... friction. poor jack's knees bled abit. then me and tty went to try, lucky i was wearing long pants, and tty got scraped knees too. hahahs... oh wells, they crapped alot, played the arcade games outrun2 and some other funny funny shooting games, me n tty go play the bball game. so sian ma, then played 4 times cuz we had 2 free games and we had aching arms. lols. then we go play the percussion master, cuz rain duno what happen den cannot meet me and break hi score le. hahas...
then i piia-ed to dhoby ghaut to meet cio. hahas, my darling. oh wells, we went to watch seven swords, cuz everyone watched it alr, and i dun really wanna watch it with my parents, dad dun want to watch anyway. hahas, so after that we watched, had fun watching, slacked awhile at the arcade, played outrun2 ahahas, percussion master, erm, his drum thingy, the guitar freaks. yea, hahas, no i feel so shibai with myself man... hahas... had alot of fun today, then didn't know what to do, so we went to his place and watched tv. haha. had fun though. oh well, left for home, he paid the cab fare again ): haii... make me feel so bad...
anyways. i got home and in case you are in a nice, good and happy mood, erm i strongly suggest you do not read the post, beware of the content ya?
mum found outi didn't go for training. quizzed me. i lied to her say that i went to buy books, got found out cuz she wanted to see the book, so anyway. i tole her i wanted to watch seven swords so i went alone. hahas... that bitch called fangyu, fo no reason, and threatened to call cio, so i said he had lessons till 6. dun want anyone to get drowned with me man. so yea, she got pissed and then ask me to go to my room. ah. guess what?
she whacked the hell outta me. and didn't give me a chance to explaine some parts which she thinks im lying- which was true kay.
anyways, she used this fake lotus flower man. it was rubbery, and she hit so hard, everytime she hit me it bent, and she had to reshape it. obviously i bled like hel. and duh, i cried. I HATE HER. she was lucky man. i was on the verge of either snatching the thingy away from her, running out and away, and/or slapping her. actually i felt like this for a long time already man.
she always wants me to be like her. oh well, now my life is officially over. i can't use the comp(im sneak using it now, cuz she's not home), im not allowed to watch the tv, no handphone(when i get home, it goes to her), and also, no house phone. THANKS IDIOT. i have NO LIFE. i don't wanna be like her. i held back, cuz if i did hit her back i'd probably be the cause of her heart attack (high blood pressure)... well, at least dad took the thingy away after awhile, and he DID boterh to talk to me nicely after that. im gonna go on a cold war with her, answer her only if she asks... i really hate her.
went to school with puffy eyes and bruises all over. blood dried though. it hurts. cuz she whacks the muscle. and when i move, it hurts bad. real bad. why can't she be another mum, why must she be my mum, why must she be like this. she says she dun wanna get her blood pressre higher, and yet, she's the one who's losing it, not me. sometimes i really can't stand her. blaming me for shit when it's not my fault. she can fuckoff.
im the kinda person, the more you try to control me, themore rebellious ill get. but if you set me free, i'll feel guilty and i'll study. think about it, you like to be controlled like a robot? im not even allowed to listen to music when i study. it helps me, but she thinks its disturbing me. i know what disturbs me and what doesn't...
im getting sick of this life. im gonna disappear one day. thanks ice for helping me by allowing me to stay at your house in case i run away. thanks chris for helping me check on the phone thingy. thanks chong yewo, for talking to me during the last lesson. thanks taiyou for kistening to my rants. thanks weida, jasmine, jojo, for being so sweet. thanks ken, for being so concerned. but lastly, thanks darling. for being there for me thses 2 days, i hope you'll abide by your promise... i'll be there for you...
i've run out of nice words to type, and if i continue, it'll turn super nasty, i'd rather keep those to myself. takkaire people, can treasure your parents, cua i know they're not like mine. afterall, my dad did say i deserved it.
oh wells. im not totally wrong, but they're not totally right either... whatever. if i disappear from the face of this earth, who will care? i doubt they'll do.
