Thursday, January 19, 2006
hey. school's getting to me. i did the damned ss chapter 7. the whole thing and i realised only need to do the last part. so gotta redo. abit sian. okay, done with complaints. i'm starting to wanna change stacie to something else. LOL. and my blog add. anyways...
HEY YA ALL. this post is dedicated to RYNETTA. thanks girl. it was harsh. but thanks (: she sent me something really sweet. but i won't put it up, unless asked personally. cuz its really personal. and this is what i mean by. DISTANCE DO NOT LEAVE FRIENDSHIPS TO WITHER AND DIE. fuck it, i love you girl.
and. today was okay. i was really depressed last night. cuz i talked to someone. and it just all whooshed back to me. i'm in reality. i gotta face it yada yada.
and i still hope for things to be better. for people around me to cheer up.
LILIAN- you probably won't read this, but i know its tough, i'm going through it too, yours probably hurt more. and be strong kay girl? you're one tough woman. and i know that some consolation words like "he's not the only one" sucks, cuz i don't believe in that too. i only can say, be strong, and be the lilian we once used to know. HAPPY inside, and out.
ALBERT- i know ldr is tough. and things may SUCK now. but hey, will you really wanna be with a completely different her? so different, so cold towards your feelings. i thikn you'd be better off. and i'll always be here. you know it. don't hurt yourself by drinking till you collapse. you have to face it someday. its called self- torture. can you please go back to your joker self? cause thats the REAL albert we all know, and we all want. not some guy who indulges in some lousy alchoholic thing. don't regret putting too much in it at first, cause if you didn't, you'd never be able to feel happiness then. and who said only she can bring a smile to your face. friends can too aight?
R.JAY.B. - you also won't read this. life's tough, school's tougher. its worse without people around us. projects, stress, friends. we all go through that. i can't say much cause i don't feel what you're going through. but as a friend i care for you. and i'm not close to you like a best friend, just want you to know. i'll be here for you okay? as a friend, a dustbin anything. 6 weeks. thats all. 6 weeks of shit and you'll be able to go on and game like no one cares- for awhile. i'm not good with words. never will be i think. but i know how to keep to a promise.
CHENN- you know you'll be strong. don't be indecisive okay. in life, choices have to be made. if you made a right choice, good for you. if you made a bad one, don't regret. pick yourself up and learn from your lesson. don't fret over small things like people guessing secrets and people lokking at you. because the most important thing is how you view youself. you think you're priceless, you always are. you think you're crap, you'll always be crap. and to me, you're a jewel.
AMANDA- heck that small boy. if he's irritating, call the cops =p and thanks so much for being there with me. i love you.
LUCIUS- projects huh. irritating little flies. don't get stressed out. chill ya? take care of yourself and that voice of yours. and i'll see you around gold ass
and to others, i know i'm not good at this talking and all. cause i'm not as strong as i may seem. but you all know that i'll be there for you okay? A PROMISE THAT I'LL KEEP. really.
read it, and believe in yourself.
10:23 PM
