Tuesday, December 15, 2009
maybe its because time has passed. or maybe its becuase the people around me helped me get stuff foff my mind. its so confusing what i should think or not think. all i know now, is that maybe there's still a place in my heart for someone else.
before i met them, you were my world. but after that, i learnt to let go. the past feels like its haunting me sometimes, like its the monster in the cabinet, creeping out only when i'm so vulnerable to it. it scares me.
metros on saturday was fun. ((: met new friends, old friends, the usual friends. got pised drunk though. HAHA... i had like 7shots and had leg cramps. i was so damn high i dropped my purse and i think my house key fell out. HUR. so had to spend the night at a friend's place. i was so drunk i threw up in his car :$ feel so bad about it, until now even. he had to pull over by the side to let me throw up haha.
that was sweet. anyways, spending the night over in a foreign environment wasn't that bad (unless it was the alcohol acting). woke up and had to rush hom to shower, felt so guilty cuz i had to call jonathan to get my extra set of house keys back HAHA.
so friend sent me back and waited and sent me to work.
sunday. felt so horrid the whole day through... i missed him*L* i dont know why, but i did. anyways, nick texted me while at work so we got to talk like after work.
*L* came by later at night and we talked and watched a movie and talked until we slept. i made breakfast on monday... the same thing happened after mahjong yesterday.
its either i'm going crazy or what. L's been on my "i miss you" list since sat. he's cute. and sweet. and gentlemenly. and things that u can;t describe with words. but i dont think its gonna work out la. cuz like although he asked me for my number before i went off for work, he doesn't really seem that interested i guess.
he can't call/text cuz he owes a huge bill haha. and i added him on fb and msn. so uh, what the hell? do i have to be the one who's so initiative all the time?
if i dont call him after school today, will he call me somehow?
i'm not looking for like a rebound guy. i just want to get things off my mind. the way which i go about doing it might not be right, but still. cuddling in bed over a movie at night before we sleep, that what i want in a relationship. not me on fb/msn/whatever and him on foxtel.
*LYNNT. OMG i have so much to tell you! i miss you girl and thanks for the regular check ins with me!!!
*L i miss you already (:
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